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I have spent much time and energy pulling all this together. I have spent countless hours trying to PROMOTE the PEACE. I keep getting comments here and there as if noone has seen what I have already written on this matter. So here it is, all in one place. I have now come to realize that noone but me reads ALL the posts, so how can I expect anyone to have the full picture. I have pulled all my comments together into one thread. Hopefully ALL will take the time to read ALL of it. Silky, Xar, and IndianaJames are excluded as they seem to have a pretty good grasp of the situation. Everyone else please read my words as I have spent alot of time trying to solve this very volatile situation. That, in and of itself, should speak volumes about how I feel about the board and the people on it. If I didn't care I would just run away and hide and ignore how you all felt. So here it is. Please read it.
My attack on you had an element of light heartedness and good humor behind it. I am afraid my comments toward Isaac were just plain nasty. Although there was some element of truth to the posts in the fact that I now feel I need to defend every comment I make or watch what I say as to not offend or make anyone feel I am trying to coerce them. That is the truly sad thing for me. I shall never be able to continue on the board with the same light heartedness I once had.
Dan P Said:quote: when tool's artwork becomes a lighter note....something's wrong.
I am truly sad that there HAS to be a "lighter note". I feel total responsible for this change of attitude around the board and again apologize for changing the dynamic. It was a great place and hope that it can return to the way it was b4. Unfortunately, I feel uncomfortable even making comments here without defending myself and my comments for fear they will be misconstrued or taken personally. I know that I am responsible for the shift in everyones attitude, so again I apologize for ruining a great thing.
Silky Said:quote: I have to respectfully disagree with you on the band though.
Here is a perfect example of what I am talking about. Everyone is on edge and feels they need to be overly polite. This was never the case before my EXPLOSION. I wish you all would return to your previous way of communicating here on the board. It was so nice when we were all friends and felt we could say whatever we wanted without the fear of hurting each others feelings. Friends should be able to talk like that. I can disagree with you and you can disagree with me and nobodys feelings are hurt. What a beautiful board it could be.
Silky Said:quote: ... see how easy it is to "agree to disagree" ... now if we could only get that through to Isaac and Fluffy :)
Again let me state, there is nothing to get THROUGH to me about on this matter. I still believe everyone can agree to disagree. I STILL feel that way. My anger is not over an argument or disagreement on the issues in "that post". My anger is over the personal attack waged against me by Isaac. My bad and my mistake were resorting to a personal attack of Isaac based on my anger of his attack on me. This is not over a disagreement on issues. I think if you go back and read what I have written time and time again. I was not trying to CONVINCE Isaac of anything. I was not trying to change his mind, just open it a little to the opposite side and issues. Where he choose to go with that info is up to him and I believe everyone should make their own decisions about things and come up with their own ideas and beliefs. Even if I do not agree with those ideas and beliefs. Many people in the aftermath of my explosion have said it much better than I. IndianaJames for instance. His comments summed up very well how I feel, he was much better at putting it more eloquently than I could have. There have been others as well. Everyone seems to have the point. This is supposed to be a fun place with the exchange of ideas among friends who may or may not agree. It is the personal attack that led to my outrage. Again I am sorry for taking it out on all of you and spreading descension among the board. I really should have thought about the outcome of my actions b4 flying off the handle like I did. It was very childish. I AM SORRY for ruining your board and the dynamic of it. I hope all can go on and return to the way it was b4 my ridiculous outburst.
Teri Said:quote: From what I can tell, Fluffy has been trying to explain his position regarding the American Indian experience to Isaac. It is a subject Fluffy is VERY passionate about, so when Isaac started out being flippant and silly (as is the standard on this message board) Fluffy started getting frustrated. It started from there and just got worse.
You are so close to the mark here. The only part that is incorrect is that I was trying to make Isaac aware of the injustices that our government can be prone to. I was just using the Indians as an example(1 of many I used)because it is a subject I know alot about, and as you have pointed out, am very passionate about. The rest is RIGHT on the mark. I think you among everyone here are more understanding of that outburst since you have witnessed many from me all thru my life.
Teri Said:quote: I think the final straw for Fluffy was when Fluffy interpreted Isaacs comments as a personal attack on his integrity/character. I don't know if that's what Isaac intended, however.
Indeed it was. As Teri can attest, having these parts of my character attacked can really set me off. I once attacked(physically) a total stranger on the street who called me a liar. Police involved, it was ugly. It is not something I am proud of, I just offer it up as an example of how I can lose my kewl when my character is attacked. It is really the only thing I have going for me and it is the one thing I am sure of. MYSELF. You better have some facts to back it up when you call me those kinds of names. The only way to explain it any clearer is Lets say someone calls ME an ASSHOLE. Well they may be right, that is their opinion of me and they are entitled to it. I could care less if they think I am an asshole it is unfortunate they feel that way, but it is THEIR opinion. Now if you call me a LIAR, that is not their opinion, that is a personal attack on my character and I WILL NOT stand for it. And incase I have not made it clear already, I do not think it is childish to defend attacks on my character, but my response to Isaacs attacks on my character were childish. Very childish. Again I apologize to everyone for my childish response to what I feel was a SERIOUS attack on me. Jay Said:quote: my parents are teh type that wants you to do exactly what they want you to...they think tha me wearing thrift store stuff is stupid, but mostly becasue of my young age they try to sway me more into the ways of most kids in today's society...I'm in the butt of things here in C(hard-on) Ohio, which is why i want Fluffy back...he's so good at making me laugh and giving good points, makes me forget my troubles with everyhting...the whole thing's a mess...
Keep being yourself Jay!! I think it is an admirable trait. Don't worry about what others think of the way you dress or what you believe. Be your own person. I really respect individuality. I grew up in a time when it was very very hard to be an individual. I am sure it has helped to make me who I am today. Which is an outlandishly dressed, speaking my mind, thinking for myself, questioning all, pain in the ass, thorn in the side of the straight world. I am happy to hear that I can make you laugh and open your eyes to some new ideas. I know how it feels to be ALONE in a place, feeling like noone understands you. There are others out there. I am one of them. One of those shunned by the world and looked down upon as strange. The only reason they feel this way is because we don't fit into THEIR way of looking or feeling about things. They don't seem to understand that to people like us, THEY are STRANGE, with their desire to fit in and not be the individual they could be. I actually feel sorry for them. Unfortunately we are in the minority so it will probably stay this way. Be content in the fact that you are not STRANGE, you are an individual. You only appear strange to them because you don't fit into their way of thinking. This is not a bad thing. Keep being yourself!!!! Oh, and I also agree, this whole thing is a mess. I talked to my sis about it for like 2 hrs on the phone the other night and it seems I have ruined everything for all involved. Again I am sorry for that. Wish I could go back in time and make it all like it used to be.
IndianaJames Said:quote: I've been silently watching this whole message board saga unfold from afar, and it's disturbing. Every single one of us here on the boards has a differing opinion on different topics and with different views comes the potential for conflict. The problem here is that we live in an open society where the exchange of ideas is welcomed. We sometimes lose sight of the fact that we're so privileged to live in a country where that kind of thinking is actually encouraged. I think it's hysterical that the new "American Dream" has come to encompass an SUV, four-thousand square foot house, 2.3 kids and the works, but we're already living in the greatest society of our time. And now we find ourselves in a bit of a struggle on a message board dedicated to the music of a phenomenal performer. People will always disagree on issues, it would take the return of a dictator or a communist regime to change that. Some people have views that most people find offensive, shocking, or outrageous, but guess what? It's these people that challenge our way of thinking and reinforces the reasoning behind our own personal beliefs. I for one am a proponent for the free exchange of thought and would hope everyone on here would realize that their respective departure from the forum won't change anyone's views. I love this board (despite my lack of postings) because there is such a personal aspect to it. As a member of several other message boards, I can no longer stand the anonymity that allows people to express their views simply because they can hide behind a pseudonym. Here everyone knows each other, and I think that in turn is the reason for this little fiasco. We're all here for one reason; to celebrate the music of Tim Reynolds. We all have that in common. Simply because we listen to the same music doesn't guarantee we all entertain the same trains of thought. And such is the beauty of human communication. Being exposed to differing points of view may turn some people off, it may piss people off, but in the end I'd rather hear why people think the way they do and why they do. Let's not forget why we're here, what has brought us together, and most importantly, what can tear us apart as is now evident. I don't want to see people leave because of the content of someone's post. As a syndicated columnist, I understand how easily it is to offend people even when no harm was meant. I would hope, for the sake of everyone here, we can all get back to the source of our presence here and return to the peace and harmony that the music of Mr. Reynolds evokes in so many.
Well I said it all the way thru the "God" post only noone seems to have gotten it. Thank you to IndianaJames for putting it so much more eloquently than me. I was reading it, for the first time, to a friend over the phone and half way thru commented on how well put you had managed to make all my points. I was not shocked to get to the bottom and see you were a syndicated columnist. You said it all so well, much better than I ever could have. I hope all will read this and finally understand what I was trying to say. I really hope you will comment and enter the discussions more often and I hope it will not take situations like this to draw you in. Thanx again for saying it better than I ever could have. I guess I was just to close to the discussion to put it so succinctly. Thanx again, and for the sake of all on the board, I hope you stick around and become an active member.
Black Lotus said:quote: Fuck ... just forget it. The whole god damn attitude here has changed, for the worst, it's making me sick. I'm outta here.
If you are still here I really hope you will rethink this. I am sorry for changing the whole dynamic of the board as I have stated on numerous occasions. It was not my intention. As they say hindsight is 20/20. There is no reason that you should leave. As I have said I will leave for the sake of all involved and hopefully the board can return to the glory of what it once was. I am personnally sorry to you, Black Lotus, that I have ruined something you once enjoyed, hopefully you will return and things can return to normal.
pdbdmb Said:quote: but just let go. I've found in my life that it is best to let things go that are beyond my control or that things that can't be changed should be forgiven.
I am sorry it is not in my nature to just "Let it Go". It is in my nature to forgive as I hope it is in all of yours also. I know I can't change things that are beyond my control and I was not trying to change anything, especially not the attitude and dynamic of the board. From the outset I knew Isaacs mind was beyond my control,(that is a good thing, everyone should be in control of their own mind) I just hoped I could make him see the other side of issues and thereby create a situation where he could make a more well informed decision. I was not asking or telling him to agree with me. I was just laying out facts for him that he was not aware of before. I am sorry that it degenerated to personal attacks. I cannot apologize enuf for this it seems. I just hope all can forgive.
Xar Said:quote: This is the Misc forum. The current events are unedited, uncensored debate. If you simply want TR subject matter hit the TR forum. If you don't like the threads just don't read them.
Xar, again, thanx for being the voice of reason. Why did I not think of that. Makes perfect sense. I guess I was too wrapped up in everthing for it to occur to me. I unfortunately or mistakenly believed that everyone read ALL the posts like I do. This definitely seems to NOT be the case. Which may explain why some of my points don't make sense to all. They need to be taken as a whole and unfortunately they are spread out all over the board. I now see who some might not get my points or comments, because the missed the points or comments I made elsewhere. I just kind of assumed that since I read every word posted on the board that everyone else did as well. I guess you know what they say, "You know what happens when you ASSUME, you make and ASS out of U and ME".
Xar Said:quote: Most subject specific message boards do not allow political or religious debates because they usually get too heated. (See above)
However, I think they should be allowed. This is real conversation. If you truly consider the people on these boards to be friends you should value their opinions on real issues, not just TR related material. This is after all, the Misc forum. There is a TR specific forum.
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Originally I was not going to comment on the debate above. However, after reading it again I have decided to.
DISCLAIMER: I mean no offense to anyone here; this is simply my humble opinion.
Fluffy you present excellent points. When you make a statement you try your best to provide actual third-party, verifiable sources to back up what you say. I agree with about 92% of your beliefs. However, I am not complimenting you simply because I agree with you. If I agreed with nothing you stated, I would still take the points you made into consideration because of the format you presented them in.
However, I do think near the end you started to take things personally and lost control a little. I think that is understandable because of the obvious passion you have for the subject matter. (By the way my great grandfather was 100% Cherokee. However my Scottish side won the chromosome battle and I turned out looking as white as can be.)
Isaac, you were doing ok at first. Then you began to slack off and just attack Fluff's words instead of his points. Maybe you do have some stronger feelings about these issues and just don't feel like presenting them strongly enough. Or maybe Fluffy overwhelmed you with too much verifiable, unbiased information for you to build a strong enough argument and you could not bring yourself to bow out.
Isaac wrote: quote: I was brainwashed at an early age by staunch republican parents, and it resulted in me being one big hairy asshole conservative myself.
It just seems to me that you are like most mainstream people. You are happy with a standard, urban middle-class lifestyle and have no desire or drive to realize that underneath the pretty surface that the media/govt/society creates there is a lot of fucked up issues in the world today.
Isaac wrote: quote: I'm the one whose content, and I’m the one who feels like I could change things if I wanted.
This is what really struck me. You just don’t' seem to care about anyone else but yourself to actually see if you could change anything. You wouldn’t even read all of what Fluffy had to say on certain issues before you responded.
Isaac wrote: quote: The thing is, we all have lots of power over our gov't, on one level we could all be writing letters to our congressmen or going around printing up pamphlets and making others aware of things that are wrong in the world, or on another level we could all be grass roots campaigning and running for city offices and changing the way our local communities are for starters. Most of you will just blow that off saying "I don't have enough money to campaign for shit" but it is possible for people with good ideas to get noticed and work their way up in the political world, to sit back and say I don't have enough money or its to corrupt is a fucking cop out preventing any of us from trying. Our whole country is based on small bands of people with similar beliefs rising up and fighting for what they believed in and most of the time it was against things scarier then "wealthy corrupt politicians
This is what Fluffy has been trying to present to you. You say that people can change the world if they really want to. And yet you have know idea if this is true or not, because you don't give a shit enough to try.
I don't know what your background is. I have worked for various government agencies and giant corporations. Take for instance this situation with the Enron bankruptcy. I worked with Enron traders for a year. I can tell you from experience, the corporate world is a fucked up, twisted place. No one cares about real issues or other people’s strife. They all smile and spew forth fake pleasantries so they can backstab each other to make more MONEY. They only want a bigger SUV and a nicer house to expand their giant ego. It is truly sick. I was in utter shock of the betrayal and lies these seemingly normal people would commit for scraps from the corporate table.
You might want to open your eyes and try to understand other people’s points without relying on your small history.
What Fluffy is saying is that in his attempts at trying to change the wrongs of the world he has, through experience, realized that it is not as easy as you believe. The government will try to stop what they believe is a threat to their power. Just look at Pat Buchanan’s newest book: Death of the West: How Dying Populations and Immigrant Invasions Imperil Our Country and Civilization. Which really translates into - The Death of the White Man's Cruel Society.
If you don’t' care enough to try to change what's wrong with the world then just state that and be done.
In conclusion, I do not have any ill will toward you. This is simply my interpretation of your posts.
Xar, thank you for summing it up so eloquently for me as well. As you can all tell my emotions were getting the best of me as well as alot of frustration at my points not being addressed. I feel I was getting to a point where it was hard to be so eloquent. Thanx for condensing it all and explaining it as well as you did. It is good to see that my comments have not gone unread or misunderstood by all. Oh and by the way, You all don't have to agree with my points, it is wonderful that you all have read them and can now take them into consideration when making your own decisions on ideas and beliefs. Thanx again Xar!!
Patrick Said:quote: but it upsets me(and really surprises me) to see that every one of your posts is basically a stab at Isaac. I always thought of this board as a place that we can agree to disagree. And if it's not really even a matter of that, but Isaac's ignorance just frustrates you to no end, please "turn it into love". Right/wrong/ignorant/whatever, I hope Isaac doesn't take it too personally. It'd be a shame to lose one of our friends.
Well Patrick, It also distresses me to see that it appears not only Isaac is missing my point. You say that all my posts are stabs at Isaac. If you are commenting on the posts all over the board. I would agree with you. If you are referring to my posts in the "God" post, I totally disagree, I kept the whole converstion geared toward the topics at hand with no "stabs" at Isaac. Isaac, in MY estimation is the one taking stabs in the "god" post. My other posts are merely a negative response(childish) to a degenerating situation. I have already apologized to everyone else on the board for becoming so public with my anger at his comments. I think you will find many posts in the past where I was the peacemaker. Saying the exact same words. "Agree to Disagree" Only my anger is not with any disagreement. Go back and read the "God" post. I have stated on numerous occasions that I do not care whether Isaac agrees or disagrees, I am just trying to make him aware of alternate viewpoints. He chose to take to the "personal attacks" that I took so personally. I continue as always to believe 2 people can disagree and still get along. I am not angry with Isaac for disagreeing, in fact I encourage it. As evidenced by comments throughout my lengthy posts. I will not concede that when 1 starts insulting that I need to remain civil. I guess in a perfect world we should be able to turn the other cheek. There are many insults I can take lightly and turn the other cheek for. Some of Isaacs go beyond that level for me. They are truly some of the most OFFENSIVE comments every leveled against me. And let me assure you, I have had my fair share of derogatory comments hurled at me throughout my life. Never giving a care to whether someone thought I was an asshole or not. What others think is of no real significance to me. I am confident enough in the person that I am not be phased by slack jawed comments, but when it comes from a supposed friend, I have a much different reaction. On the other hand, comments about my integrity, sincerity, motivation, etc etc etc, when I have CLEARLY stated my intention and purpose numerous times. Still everyone seems to get the wrong impression. Sorry you all got the wrong impression. Give yourselves a few years and maybe you will figure out what I am talking about. You asked me to turn it to love. Well just so everyone knows, let me state for the record that I DO NOT HATE ISAAC. I just think he is immature and unwilling to listen to anything else beyond what he believes. He got himself into a conversation way over his head. It is all my fault for thinking I could have a conversation like that and have any of it comprehended in the manner I hoped. If I am seen as the ranting madman, then all have missed the point. That saddens me. Maybe after some time and water under the bridge when it is not so much like salt in a fresh wound, you can go back read the post from top to bottom and hopefully get more out of it than you have so far. Once again I apologize to everyone for losing it so publicly when I was so viciously attacked. I admit it was childish but what the hey. As evidenced by many past posts I sure you will see that this is totally out of character for me. But maybe it will help to convey just how offended I truly was, that I would lose my kewl so badly for what everyone else seems to view as a minor incident. I guess I truly am in the MINORITY!
Patrick Said:quote: Yeah, like I said I totally understand where you were going in the "god" topic. I was just talking about the posts all over the place. I can see where you would take offense to some of the things Isaac said, and understand how anger can get the best of us sometimes. It makes me feel a lot better to know that you understand where I was coming from on that. Just want to state again that I totally understand and would back you up in the "god" topic, it's just the posts made everywhere that got to me. I certainly don't see you as a "ranting madman". And also it takes a good man to say he's sorry. Like you said it was definitely out of character for you which is why I said I was surprised to see it. Anyway, thanks for clearing things up for us.
I am glad someone noticed that my behavior was totally out of character and again I am sorry it surprised you. All I am really interested in at this point is "clearing things up" and letting the board go on as b4. It was a great board b4 my rantings. And yes, I was a ranting MADman. Sorry again.
Liz K Said:quote: You certainly don't have to apologize for expressing you feelings. I commend you for your compassion in trying to share your feelings. You know the old saying, you can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink! I have decided when I encounter people like that, it's just not worth the time or the stress.
Thanx for the kind words, but unfortunately I have to disagree with the last part. Although, unfortunately I am certainly inclined to agree with you on this one. But seriously, I think it is worth the time to try and educate others. I want to live in a world of free thinking people who make their own decisions and don't live by the spoon-fed propoganda they usually hear. I want people to have both sides of the picture. That way they can make a more informed decision. I will agree that it is not worth the stress. As I have stress about this for far too long and it has started to invade every aspect of my life. That is a bad thing. B4 this whole post crisis, I was in the best possible mood. My job situation was better than every, by personal life was better than ever, and I was happier than I had ever been in the past 15 years, as a whole. Unfortunately, I have taken this whole thing way to seriously and personnally. I wish I could have let it go. Unfortunately, I feel very strongly about it and it is not in my nature, although it sounds like it would have been better for everyone involved, including me. Now I find myself in a serious depression because of it all, and it is all over a stupid fucking post. HOW STUPID. It does not change the way I feel, it just makes me realize more I seriously I take it. Maybe to seriously, I don't know. I just wish I could go back in time and erase the whole situation. If I had thought about or known the outcome I certainly would have dropped it along time ago. It is not worth all the hubbub it has become. For that, I am sorry.
Pantshappy Said:quote: i'm not against Isaac (and i'm sure you're not either), i think he can be funny when he wants to be and also a friend to people on this board.
I am glad someone sees this. It was never about being "against Isaac" or "brainwashing Isaac" or "hating Isaac and his beliefs". It was about educating Isaac to more facts, ideas and concepts. Unfortunately it spiraled out of control and we find ourselves in this mess where both Black Lotus and Isaac have disappeared. It was never my intention to drive people from the board and I am crushed that my behavior has resulted in that. I hope they will be the bigger men and return to the board and not let this drive them away. I would sooner leave than tear you guys apart.
Silky Said:quote: Fluffy, I sincerely hope that you will just be the bigger man on this one...
Thanx for all the kind words, but I don't think it is about being the bigger man. At the risk of being accused of thinking I am better than anyone else or putting myself on a pedastal, I feel I was the bigger man thru the whole "God" post. Then when he got personal, I acted like a child. I am not leaving out of anger, I am leaving cause I think it is in the best interest of the board. I am not walking away from it because I can't handle it, I am walking away so I do not ruin this wonderful thing we have here on the board. I also feel that I now have to defend every comment I make so it will not be misconstrued or misunderstood, basically I am uncomfortable posting on the board because I now see how easy it is to offend or have comments taken out of context. I used to feel I could say whatever I wanted and did not have to worry about offending anyone. That is gone for me and I feel it is at least partially my fault. Again I am sorry for changing the dynamic of the board, the one thing that kept me coming back. I feel like I have crushed the spirit of the board, and I feel like a piece of shit. SORRY!!
pcbdmb Said:quote: I haven't really read the god topic either (just skimmed through it) and I would like to hear his side of the story. I mean, if you read all the posts, we are all blaming Isaac (directly or indirectly) and we haven't heard anything from him. Now what he said in the god topic might have been completely out of line, I don't know. But I would like to see both side of the story before I make any futher judgments.
There is no blame to be placed here. I certainly hope noone blames Isaac. If you read the post I think you will see what I am talking about. I don't know why everyone always feels they have to blame someone. There is NO BLAME for this situation, except maybe my uncontrollable temper in these situations. I also would like to hear from Isaac. I think his side in this is invalualble, since he is the other person involved. I hope I have not driven him away from the board. That would be a horrible thing and something that I will have to live with. I would feel horrible. To have destroyed the friendship between the board and Isaac. He made me laugh many times and considered him a friend. Friends should be able to work out their differences or at least be able to come to an agreement to agree to disagree and go on with being friends. Unfortunately it did not go that way. I don't know what else I can do. Every option I have examined seems to have a negative outcome. The worst of which is how I changed the dynamic of the board and drove people away. Again I am sorry for that.
babtunji Said:quote: yes, true, isaac has frosted my gonads with a number of his insights (?), but a message board is a forum, simply that. an exchange of ideas. some opinions are contrary to ours, we have to try to respect those opinions, not get too pissed or take it too personally. with my first post, i got slammed...big time...and that's mmmkay. no reason to leave dodge. perhaps we all need to approach this with a common respect for each other...whether or not we agree with each other.
I always respect the opinions of others and I did not get pissed at his opinions. I did not take his opinions as a personal attack. If you go back to the "God" post, I think you will see there was a personal attack leveled against me and that was when I lost it. IF I am wrong, please let me know, as I feel it was a personal attack. I encourage everyone to have their own ideas and opinions and even when I disagree I have never lost it. I think my past posts will prove that. I have disagreed with many on the board. It was never a big thing. It still isn't and should not become one. Although I believe that by my actions I have changed that. I am afraid the board will never be the same because of it and I feel horrible that it was my actions that brought about this horrible change. I would love to see the board go on as b4, but I am a pessimist and believe I have ruined it for all involved. Again, I am sorry for that.(Geez, I am fucking tired of saying I am sorry! HEHE)
Saint Jude Said:quote: I did this to my best friend too, and we got over it, like i think you two should. not to say one was right or wrong, in fact i agree with you fulf rather then Issac (i didnt read everything but the jist of it i think i got), but leaving here doesnt solve the problem, infact i would love it for you to return to the page and give us as much knowladge that u can on said subject, and various others that you find important. Becasuse that is what humans are suposed to do, they are suposed to educate themselves and try to shape the world around them they way they see fit, and you cant do that if u run and hide.
I would love for Isaac and I to get past this. But based on his comments towards me I don't think he can and I have not seen anything from him showing he cares at all about getting past it. That is unfortunate. I am glad you and your friend were able to agree to disagree. I do not think that leaving here will solve anything. Except maybe to allow everyone else to go on as b4 and maybe get the board back to the dynamic that made it so great. I hoped that by my leaving Isaac and members like Black Lotus would not feel a need to leave. Black Lotus was having a great time b4 I went off and then he said I had changed the whole feeling on the board so he had to leave. That is what I feel worst about. That I caused people to leave. That I changed the attitude of the board. Just so ya know, I am not running and hiding. If I was gonna do that I would have dropped that discussion in the "God" post long ago. I hope, as evidenced by the "God" post, I am not someowe who runs and hides from a confrontation. To me the confrontation is over and I feel leaving would be best for the board. I feel everyone sees me as the "BAD GUY" in this and that is a lousy way to feel, when I was only stating MY facts. Then when I was attacked, I reacted, albiet badly, but that is just my nature, to defend my character when attacked. I stand up for myself and my beliefs, and that seems to have made me the "BAD GUY". My hope was that if I left the board could go on as b4 without any ill-will among the members and nobody trying to place the blame or pointing fingers. As evidenced by my continually return to answer these comments, I am not "running" or "hiding" from MY actions. I am just trying to help everyone understand them. My sister has seen me overreact thru my entire life to what most would consider the most minor of situations. I overreacted as recently as LA when my laptop crashed and my hair caught on fire. My sister once lost $100, she came to see me at the store and I freaked when she told me. I overreact sometimes, I know this about myself. It really sucks to have to apologize for yourself over and over again when you know what you did was wrong and you wish you could take it all back. It's my personality flaw and I apologize for it.
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Posted - 01/21/2002 : 4:37:25 PM
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I over reacted and took something completely out of context that I personally didn't fully understand, nor did I follow. For that, you needn't aplogize to me Fluffy. I should apologize to you and everyone else.
I'm a real bastard, which should be obvious. And I'm pretty much close minded and I have tunnel vision - I just can't help it. It makes me who I am, but that isn't always a good thing.
I'm not good with words, other than swearing, so my ideas seem wonderful in my head, but rather shitty on paper (or typed). It's truely impossible for me to articulate what I want to say most of the time, not because I'm unintelligent, but because I'm bad with words. I'm much better at being a computer geek than I am at saying what I want.
So, I wont stick my nose where it doesn't belong and just continue my sensless ranting, raving and rabble on the board as I have do so in the past.
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Fluffy
Administrator
    
USA
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Posted - 01/21/2002 : 4:44:37 PM
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Glad you have decided to reconsider and stick around. I certainly never meant to run anyone off with my senseless ramblings. Thanx for being the bigger man and staying amongst friends. As you can see we all seem to have a hard time getting our thoughts from our head to the keyboard. Don't fret it man. Keep being yourself. Glad to have you back.
Peace & Keep the Faith Fluffy          |
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dan p.
Alien Abductee
    
Uganda
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Posted - 01/21/2002 : 5:25:08 PM
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dude, i enjoy your rantings. a lot. yours too, fluffy.
when you think about it, mud is just wet dirt. |
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