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Ranting Thespian
Fluffy-Esque
USA
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 Posted - 02/08/2008 : 04:03:58 AM
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Well, I am doing very badly right now. Extremely depressed, super unhappy with my life, just not being all together, shivering and crying a lot.
Plus I have hid something of myself for years, and just try to ignore it. I finally faced it myself, and did a lot of research online.
I self diagnosed myself with schizophrenia. I don't want to go into details, because they are very personal, and scare me so much they send chills throughout my body. I need to see my psychiatrist soon, and maybe a new therapist.
Just it feels like everything is going wrong, and I try to stay upbeat and smile and joke, but when it gets to a point none of it works anymore. I can only just try to numb myself in tv or computer stuff. I feel like shivering and crying in a corner right now.
I need all the support that I can get right now. This past week I can't get a hold of the two people I feel comfortable talking to about this. So any support from you guys would be greatly appreciated. I know I get down a lot, and can be depressing or even needy sometimes, but it's just bad right now. I really need help. |
Not communicating can hurt more than any word that can be said -
Nick
-the Ranting Thespian |
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Eagle Eye
Is Anybody Here?
USA
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Posted - 02/08/2008 : 08:44:06 AM
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I want to congradulate you. I know, you're thinking what the hell? But seriously, running from yourself is a dangerous game and facing what you have been running from is brave. Even if it's scary as hell and you don't know how you are going to deal with it, just being open to the truth is the key to your freedom. Seeking out some help immediately is a very good idea. This seems like something that you need to address right away if you are that concerned. And maybe it's not schizophrenia. Self diagnosis via the internet is tricky buisness. Unhappiness and depression are powerful emotions and they can seem to be overwhelming for all of us at times. I want you to throw on Smile and take a few deep breaths, Buddy. It's never as dark as it seems.
I wish you peace. |
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rubylith
Fluffy-Esque
1915 Posts |
Posted - 02/08/2008 : 11:29:41 AM
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Aw dude I'm Dr. Depression, I hope you get through it. Life is tough and fucking crazy. You have to just get through the shitty parts. Don't let it overtake you. Grab your guitar, a candle, some cigarettes, a pad of paper and a pen and start writing. Just do it, don't overthink it, don't think about what someone might think of it. Just get it out.
As the deceased Tony Soprano once said, "this thing we got...in here...it's kind like takin' a shit".
Feel better my friend. You'll be ok! |
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Robin
Yak Addict
USA
598 Posts |
Posted - 02/08/2008 : 12:54:20 PM
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Self diagnosis is never a good thing,see someone so you can get support. If your'e open to it after a proper diagnosis, Homeopathy can be a really good modality. As well I have turned several of my cients to a web site called truehope.com The maker of the product they sell is a friend/colleague's father who lost his wife to suicide.
The whole family suffered from Suicidal depression and he discovered a mineral complex that addresses the depression in the brain naturally. I can't tell you how many people benefitted and told me so. I know this sounds like an advert, but check out the site. They work with you by giving you a person that you check in with and for people on meds they know how to help them as well. Hope it goes well and you can get what you need, Peace, Robin |
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Arthen
Alien Abductee
USA
4845 Posts |
Posted - 02/08/2008 : 1:13:10 PM
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| Good luck and good vibes. Listen to your favorite John Lennon, do the things that make you happiest, and good luck. Best hopes for you, man. |
Steve Hackett: "I'm my own opening act, you see."
Tim (before "Faceoff"): "Peace, love....and SEX!"
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Hopeful Rolling Waves
Alien Abductee
South Sandwich Islands
2154 Posts |
Posted - 02/08/2008 : 3:26:55 PM
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How old are you? (Not a paedophile.)
Age is a BIG deal when talking about mental stability, especially this day in age. |
http://db.etree.org/hopefulrollingwaves/ < My Trading List |
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rubylith
Fluffy-Esque
1915 Posts |
Posted - 02/08/2008 : 3:32:27 PM
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quote:
Originally posted by Hopeful Rolling Waves
How old are you? (Not a paedophile.)
I will strongly contest that.
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Zachmozach
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1534 Posts |
Posted - 02/08/2008 : 11:47:38 PM
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| Get help and try to stay away from the drugs if you can. That stuff's nasty. My sister had a bout with schizophrenia and that stuff wasn't what really helped her. Good luck. |
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Ranting Thespian
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1283 Posts |
Posted - 02/09/2008 : 02:37:41 AM
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Thanks guys.
Also, I know I could be wrong hence that is why I will be brining this up to my psychiatrist the next time I see him (which will be very soon). I also have never turned to drugs. I don't drink alcohol, ever. I also have never even tried a cigarette. I know if I did do drugs, I'd screw my mind up so bad I would either be dead or in a mental institute.
Thanks for the support guys, I really mean it. |
Not communicating can hurt more than any word that can be said -
Nick
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rdj218
Try A Little Harder
USA
85 Posts |
Posted - 02/12/2008 : 4:40:52 PM
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Hey, feeling any better? I think you sound quite human:) Life is fricken crazy, no doubt about it, so it seems logical to me to get upset about it. The DRUG fuckers out there are pushing the idea that "depression is not normal" just so you will feel like you're "suppose to" buy their stuff to fit in with the status quo. The beauty of mass marketing!!! They are, in my opinion, very bad Jedi.
The reality though is that life can be totalllllly depressing at times no matter who you are or where you come from:) I think it's healthy to cry too-- otherwise you might just explode or get heart problems. I say go for it and cry your eyes out until you feel better. It seems to work for me:) My two boys do the same when they're feeling blue:)
One thing I've noticed with my boys is that whenever they are ready to advance to the next level, they will be WAYYYYYY moodier than they normally are. Maybe you're ready to make some advancements and are just feeling the grief of change?
Anyway, remember we're alll a little strange in the dome man. |
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dan p.
Alien Abductee
Uganda
3776 Posts |
Posted - 02/12/2008 : 4:50:45 PM
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. . .except that depression and schizophrenia can be purely biological chemical imbalances that can be corrected with drugs and therapy. so. . .
are you a scientologist? |
death to false metal. |
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GuitarGuy305
Alien Abductee
USA
2007 Posts |
Posted - 02/12/2008 : 9:50:29 PM
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Dan, Dan, Dan...you're glib.
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Ranting Thespian
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1283 Posts |
Posted - 02/13/2008 : 02:33:45 AM
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I am feeling better, but because I have been discussing this with my friend Anna. Me and her talk stuff out, and we actually tend always make the other feel better. I am actually going to try to have her come along to my next appointment to help me talk about this stuff.
Also, I am clinically depressed. I know I am bi-polar, it's pretty obvious if you know me. I know what I was like when I was off my meds and now that I am on them. Trust me, I am a lot more together. If I wasn't on my meds, I would have blown my brains out by now. I am not joking, I was planning on dieing before I left highschool!
Now, what is happening in my mind is not normal. It is also very disruptive to my life. Crying doesn't always make me feel better too. I have gone through crying experiences, and sometimes all I am afterwards is numb. Not the good kind, the bad kind. I feel dead, and like the world is going to end feeling. It's not a good thing for me to cry alone. When I really cry, I need someone there to cry to. |
Not communicating can hurt more than any word that can be said -
Nick
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Zachmozach
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1534 Posts |
Posted - 02/14/2008 : 03:04:30 AM
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Originally posted by dan p.
. . .except that depression and schizophrenia can be purely biological chemical imbalances that can be corrected with drugs and therapy. so. . .
are you a scientologist?
No, I believe I said "if you can" though. The meds sometimes are the only thing that help but even like 60 years ago they were treating depression with LSD so I'm not sure I buy into these new medicines being any better since from what I read LSD seemed to work just as well.
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Ranting Thespian
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1283 Posts |
Posted - 02/14/2008 : 04:03:14 AM
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One thing about me, don't ever insult my doctors. 3 of them are almost so close I might consider them as family.
Also, they do not work for drug companies, if you're thinking of that. For years when I had no insurance, they would see me for free, then they would walk out of the room and return with a bag of free samples for all my meds! Why did they do this? Because they cared, and I owe a lot to them. |
Not communicating can hurt more than any word that can be said -
Nick
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Zachmozach
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1534 Posts |
Posted - 02/14/2008 : 11:38:20 PM
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| Did someone insult your doctors? |
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dan p.
Alien Abductee
Uganda
3776 Posts |
Posted - 02/15/2008 : 03:18:50 AM
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quote:
Originally posted by Zachmozach
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Originally posted by dan p.
. . .except that depression and schizophrenia can be purely biological chemical imbalances that can be corrected with drugs and therapy. so. . .
are you a scientologist?
No, I believe I said "if you can" though. The meds sometimes are the only thing that help but even like 60 years ago they were treating depression with LSD so I'm not sure I buy into these new medicines being any better since from what I read LSD seemed to work just as well.
i was addressing rdj. but since you bring it up, i fail to see the relevance of lsd being used as a treatment for depression to this discussion. they did a lot of wacky shit 60 years ago. medicine has made advances.
i guess what i'm asking is why do you hate science? |
death to false metal. |
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Hopeful Rolling Waves
Alien Abductee
South Sandwich Islands
2154 Posts |
Posted - 02/15/2008 : 10:15:51 AM
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LSD to the non-schizo can certainly be therapeutic.
Much like THC. But you wouldn't know ANYTHING about that, Dan. |
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dan p.
Alien Abductee
Uganda
3776 Posts |
Posted - 02/15/2008 : 11:39:44 AM
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| that is true, i have never used lsd or smoked weed. no poison 4 lyfe! |
death to false metal. |
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Zachmozach
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1534 Posts |
Posted - 02/15/2008 : 12:27:17 PM
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| I don't hate science. In fact I hate just the opposite which is the non-scientific approach that many in the medical profession use these days and used. There is most definitely a symptom curing medical fleet out there these days and we tend to think that our medicines are so much more advanced now these days. You'd find that same attitude 60 years ago when people prescribed LSD. It seemed to work ok but at the same time we look back on that and frown, well some might. I think someone like Robin knows a lot more about this stuff than I do and about the industry though. |
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dan p.
Alien Abductee
Uganda
3776 Posts |
Posted - 02/15/2008 : 2:19:50 PM
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i was joking about the you hating science thing.
yeah i know that doctors tend to lob pills at everything for everything, pharmaceutical companies are basically satan (all hail the dark lord.) but yeah, i'd like to hear what robin has to say about it. |
death to false metal. |
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Ranting Thespian
Fluffy-Esque
USA
1283 Posts |
Posted - 02/15/2008 : 6:31:47 PM
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I wasn't saying that someone put down my doctors, I was just making a warning because sometimes people do.
Also they thought LSD was a truth saline, and the CIA used it when questioning people . . . and in Greece they gave it to people in temples to channel messages from the Gods. |
Not communicating can hurt more than any word that can be said -
Nick
-the Ranting Thespian |
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